Lexie

She liked the rain. Lexie, was fond of rain since she was 4 months old. Wrapped in a blanket she used to stare at the raindrops making rainbows across the sky. It always fascinated her. From homeless shelter to her new home, She had grown quite big now. She loves her new house and everything about it. How her mom makes delicious food for her, how she gets ice cream on occasional Sundays.

The few moments of her life when she listened to music were the ones she enjoyed most. She would jump with joy. Holding her mamma's legs. She would dance to the beats. 

Just one year old would never understand languages, but she does understand music. I guess that's the magic of music. 

Biscuits are her favourite though. Freshly made oatmeal raisin cookies. Ahh. She would know the fragrance from miles away. Although she can't have much sweet till she is two and half years old. So occasional treats are more special for her. 

Today is one of the special days since it's raining outside and cookies are being made for her. Unlike most 1-year-olds, she loves playing with the rain. But because of the fear of getting sick, she isn't allowed to do so much. Once in a while is okay. And today is her lucky day. 

Her eyes have turned greenish-brown from light brown now. She has long curly brown hair. Lots of them. And that is the best feature, everyone likes her so much about. Mamma loves to give her bath. Because after every bath that hair shines like the red sun setting far far away from their home in the sea.

While she plays outside in the rain, her parents now look at her. And they know now that everything happens for a reason. And while they can't have a baby of their own. An adopted dog can fill so many empty spaces in their life. 

Their baby comes in all wet. She Shrugs herself and splashes the water everywhere. They laugh and play with her. 

Wrapping her in a towel, the three of them share a plate of oatmeal raisin cookies.

From a Diary's Page!!

22^nd March 2014, 9:16 pm

Some girls have dreams, dreams much more complicated and far more unusual than the rest of them. They think ‘out of the box’ and unexpected things about their lives. They may be revolutionary in their ideas but there is no lie in what they do. No hiding in what they find apt and comfortable. Their dream is to live their life in infinite possible ways, explore the world, explore air, explore water, explore earth, explore life and most importantly explore themselves. They have fire in their eyes, the fire that doesn’t burn and harm someone but fire that can light up their worlds. They have power in themselves, power not to crush the powerless but raise all those who are not confident enough, till her level.

I know a girl like this. She has dreams, she dreams of her life to be. What does she want her life to be like??

She wants her life to be free, she wants to make herself so perfect that one can never find any flaw in her. But as nature abides by the rules, there are lots of obstacles and hurdles in her path of doing so. Being a girl it isn’t that easy to live a life of her own choice. There are a lot of barriers and oppositions.

Once she got so low that she thought of dropping the idea of her dreams and live a monotonous and orthodox way. She was demoralized, she was broken inside, was disgusted by what people thought about her, she was furious and sad at the same time. Everything was finished, every path closed. She ran to her favourite place on the terrace, lying awake under the black, beautiful sky, holding infinitesimal shining stars, listening to songs and broken and lost from inside.

Suddenly she glared at the small but brightest star in the sky, and one by one had a look at every star her eyes can reach to. They seemed her shinier than before and a smile popped up on her face. Her heart pounded and in a blink of an eye, she knew she couldn’t give up on her dreams, her life.

Don’t know what exactly but those stars gave her a hint. Suddenly she rose up, got determined. She knew she wanted to be like the pole star, alone in the sky but fixed at its point, determined and giving directions to the lost ones from zillions of centuries. She knew she wanted to be like Venus, the brightest star of all, which gets noticed among all the stars. The first one to be seen at dawn and the last one to be seen at dusk. She knew she wanted to fulfil her dreams by hook or by crook.

Whatever happens, she can never give up on her dreams. She knew this now. She knew she can be happy anytime she wanted, she knew she had all that it takes to fulfil her dreams. She knew she can overcome any of the obstacles, be it society, or people who are so called “friends” around her. She knew it for sure now. She was happy again.

This girl I know will fulfill her dreams. She will never give up, never surrender, and when she is broken and burnt and feels like giving up, she will rise from the ashes just as a phoenix does. Fire won't be her enemy anymore.

In Memory of my Changed Feelings

Sometimes I felt like you were very lonely,
Those were the times I wanted to hug you, hold you close to me and
say “I am here for you baby”,
Sometimes I felt like you hated the world,
Those were the times I wanted to tell you to see the beauty,
Sometimes I felt you got dejected,
Those were the times I wanted to show you how warm a company could be,
Some were the times we talked lonely,
Those were the times I missed you most,
Even though you were with me still I missed you, how worse it now could be,
Some were the times words were inappropriate,
Those were the times silence we embraced,
Sometimes people can’t comfort you,
Those were the times I wish I could have hold you,
Sometimes I felt you got miserable,
Those were the times I wanted to kiss you in forehead and caress your hairs,
Mostly because I loved, I felt like this,
No one except for me is going to see it,
Go on, search for anyone like me,
Even if you deny no one can ever love you the way I did,
I wanted to enter your world but you closed all the doors,
I know they are never going to open even if I try more and more,
Leaving you now with a note “I will always love you”,
No more you are going to see me and hear my voice,
I have realized in your life, my worth and my price!!

An Uncommon Story of a Common Girl

Aara had an awkward inferiority complex in her. Although she looked good, was intelligent, had a good sense of humor, had lots and lots of friends, was praised by almost every teacher and acquaintances, but she was just afraid of letting out her emotions. She was afraid if she commits a mistake. She didn’t know then that mistakes are the vital part of our lives. As she was taught from starting that mistakes are for losers, and that she had to be perfect in front of everyone. So she got moulded that way. She never showed her inner potentials and abilities. But being with Pranav she learned a lot, and now she started participating in everything, every event, every fest.

Another year started, it was her 9^th standard. She got into the school first day, excited to see her classmates and teachers. As the day started she came to know that Pranav was in the other section, sad for him she still managed to get happy because of her another best friend, Pankhuri, she was her best friend in class. They studied together since 4^th standard. She was happy to be with her for once again.

Battle started for once again. This time she was doing really appreciable. She held a grip of her studies and marks this time. There was no one to support her like Pranav tough, but she did very well, because she lived in a way he wanted her to live, he taught her to live.

One day her only male friend, Naman came to her and said, “Pranav met with an accident, he is serious!!”

And she got numb hearing  that. She instantly asked him to tell her more about what happened. And Naman burst into a laugh.

She got furious about the cheap prank he played with her. She scolded him and asked him not to talk to her again ever. But then he told her something that made her day.

Naman said, “hey stupid!! I just wanted to confirm if you had feelings for him or not?”

Although she denied, but somewhere deep inside she couldn’t resist smiling and being her friend Naman caught her. He then told her that Pranav too liked her.

She couldn’t believe and wanted a proof. So Naman told her, “one day we all friends were sitting together, everyone discussing about their girlfriends, and suddenly Pranav shocked us telling he liked you a lot”. And he went.

Butterflies started dancing in her stomach, but yet not sure she wanted to confirm it. The next day she went to Naman to ask about all the stuffs. And he said that Naman wants you to be his girlfriend but that is only after he clears out IIT-JEE. And he wanted her to do the same with him. She was happy just to hear that Pranav too liked her. She too agreed to it as after meeting Pranav she got an aim of going for engineering as her career.

Till 7^th standard she had math anxiety. But after she got in the same section with Pranav she started liking mathematics. As a matter of fact he taught her so well that she decided to make a career opting mathematics as a subject.

And now her aim got a support and stronger determination.

Both of them started their journey together. Although with different supports and guidance but had same aim and determination.........................................

An Uncommon Story of a Common Girl

Starting of new class, new academic session for her was exciting. Sitting next to Pranav has made one thing clear to Aara and that was, she had to score more marks than him anyhow. At first she was hesitant towards him but gradually she started talking to him. She started opening up to him like she never did with anyone. It was good for her. They became good friends. Pranav helped her in her studies too, being her competitor. And that was the thing she liked about him the most. She started talking in class, which she never did after an incident happened to her in class 1. She got new enthusiasm, new hope, new happiness and new comfort zone. Pranav was really kind hearted unlike her thoughts about him. They had good times together, participated in dances, debates and all the other cocurricular activities. Although they were just very good friends but rumors started to get into the air.

She scored full marks in mathematics for the first time in her life just because of Pranav. She was floating on the ninth cloud. It had been a very good experience in her life being with him, talking to him, knowing him and laughing and enjoying life with him. He too liked her company a lot. They were on their own when together.

But that was not soothing to some eyes, for instant, a ma’am (Mrs. Sheela) living next to her, liked Pranav a hell lot as her favorite student. But she didn’t like her as much. So she started gossiping about them with her mother. When she came to know about it from her mother, she stopped talking to Pranav and changed her place even. They stopped interacting and her life went to boring again.

It was almost the end of academic session that she had to stop talking to him. Days passed as usual. Final exams came. This time she worked real hard but the result was as usual, she came second. First position was secured by Pranav again. But this time she wasn’t disappointed., rather she was happy that she had a good time with a new friend whole year. She didn’t care about her mother even.

Vacations passed, she did nothing unusual, exciting. Just being in home and preparing for next year.

This time she was looking forward for next academics. She wanted to be in section with Pranav.

Somewhere inside she started liking him. And had a feeling that Pranav liked her too..................................................

An Uncommon Story of a Common Girl

Today she was sad. she didn't score good marks in her mid terms exams. only 77??
These were lowest marks scored by her till the date. she got low and went home midway through the school. hard for her to digest the fact. as soon as she reached home, she was scared to tell her mom about it. "Mumma!!! i scored very less marks in mathematics this time and i am really sorry about it", was the first sentence she said to her mom. but except for sympathy, she heard lots of comments and taunts instead. she got depressed and shattered. went to bed without having her lunch, cried and slept.
At evening the voice of her mother woke her up. her eyes still red and swelled. "is this the only thing mother wants from me??marks??ranks??" was the first thought came to her mind. she somehow lifted her mood up and went out to have a troll with her best friend Simran.
Simran was an year older than her but still was the one who can cheer her up when she is in her lowest. she was compeletly herself with Simran. nothing to worry about.
They had a walk around the house and she laughed and had fun with her until she came back to home. her mother was still upset so she sat down to study without speaking anything. at last her mother broke her silence up by asking her to have something to eat. she had a sigh of relief at last!!
Days passed, she worked harder and the final result was quite good for her 7th standard. but her mother yet unsatisfied because she couldn't  secure 1st rank. it was grabbed by her classmate Pranav Dixit for once again. from the starting of her academics, Pranav was the one to secure 1st rank in all the sections.
Still happy for herself she made a decision of doing better next time!!
As the new academic session began so was the enthusiasm and will to do better this time. her mother eager to teach her everything at once (huff!!). but something happened this new academic session. Pranav was her classmate after 6 years. that too she was seated next to him. this was kind of strange for her. but she accepted that too..........................




(to be continued).......................

www world - a confusion!!

our lives today have reached a point where we don't get out of virtual world to have a look at the things already present around us. this is the thing that depresses me. people are busy making contacts with people they don't know even exists or not. there is no value of our near and dear ones today in our lives. i am really confused if is this the way we have to live rest of our lives sitting in front of the screens of our laptops and cell phones. is this the way we will get to know people. what will be our real life? what will be the attachment we make?
today we can even notice we are unable to talk when the same person we chat to daily comes in front of us. i cant understand if this is good or bad. i have experienced it in my daily life. has our real world come to an end?
are the real emotions the real touch the real feelings gone?
these are the things for us today to ponder over. these are the things that worry me most. these are the things that can be changed. things can get worse if we continue doing the same. people will forget how to talk, people will not get the words when it comes to talking to someone. i just wished it had not been this way so that we still had respect for ones real feelings!!